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Papercut.I wish that my heart was made out of steel
so my paper heart
wouldn't fade away
and turn into nothing but ink
as your words leave me breathless.

I wish I could just tape my heart back together again,
so it would be like you never broke my heart apart.

InsecureI may seem brave,
I may seem strong,
But in truth I do in destiny belong
To my fears,
My tears,
The stream of lonely forgotten years,
That have replaced my dignity;
A dagger so jagged,
The fragments left behind,
Only cling at my soul to remind
Me of my shortcommings and imperfections
And tell me I'm negotiable;
That things will never stay the same;
The world changes,
The tides turn.
Black and white,
Grow easier to discern.
So life goes on.
Friendships grow,
in Destiny's bond.
Hopes and dreams tarry along.
And somewhere,
In the depths of my mind,
Sparks that little ping of horror
That I'll be left
behind.

D e n i a l. I know I've been doing things that I'd say
I'd never do again.
Perhaps this is what is making me
fall back.

Maybe I'm really not okay again.

The Lunacy of InsecurityInsecurity creates madmen from lovers.

Insecurity convinces you that the person who loved you two hours ago has somehow, over that course of time, changed his or her mind.

Insecurity causes you to look at everyone as an enemy. Everyone is a potential threat, with no greater intention than stealing your lover away.

Insecurity tells you that your love could easily be cheating on you. After all, he or she knows you better than anyone and could easily play you.

Insecurity keeps you up at night and forces you to think of all the ways things can go wrong. It makes you forget how everything has all ready gone right.

Insecurity invents situation

Poets make good liars.She always walks alone broken and lost,
but a lot of people call her cold
because she's never been in love.

At night, she can't sleep anymore
as she just lies awake day-dreaming.

Poets make good liars.

WillowHer hair is like the roots
Which is suiting?
Since her name is Willo
And for most of the night
She kept me firmly in one place
Held me firm
In that little red basement on the east side
The fire burned outside
But the heat came from her
Kaleidoscope eyes
Shifting and changing color
Silver eyes and red lips
This earth child
Half elf
Half fawn
She sang a song and pushed some keys
With sensuality of a burlesque dancer
And like the forest creature she was
She disappeared consumed by the shadows of trees
And suburban homes
The messenger of some fairy queen
Sent to lend me courage

trustChasm

Floating, drifting

Moving, echoes

I  . . . I am some where

distant, yet close . . .

An ambient sort of feeling . .

I am  .. . . . . I

This place . . Its, beautiful

though . . .. . .    .

a calling

a gush

a . . .

inhale

If I Could SingI'm sorry I can't write a song for you, love
I'm sorry that the words never come
I can see your eyes in the back of my skull
And I wish I could tell you how you make me whole

I wish there was music in my fingertips
So I could sing to you with your taste on my lips
I just want to belt out a melody
As haunting as the one you wrote for me

But I just try to make something of myself
Because you are worth letting go of myself

Because your name is engraved upon my veins
It has been since I remembered your face
Like a dream, unchanged
I woke up one day wanting you
And after everything that we've been through
And after everything that'

UglyMy face is ugly
My hair is messy
My nose is big
My finger nails are short
My arms are chubby
And I weigh more than I should.

I'm insecure and just want someone to love, but I know no one will ever love me. How could someone love me? I'm too hideous.

A lot of these things go through her head every day.
I watch her as she goes through the halls alone and sad.
I want to be there for her.
To hold her and tell her I love her.
To tell her she's the most beautiful girl I ever met.

Her face is beautiful
Her hair is gorgeous, especially when it blows in the wind
Her nose is perfect, cute as a button
Her black finger nails a

Losing it...waking up, fear filled his eyes
bottles empty,
as darkness creates it's disguse

here comes the nightmare
tearing his mind and soul
as his life tonight,
shall enter the cold

he cannot sleep, it will never come
the fear keeps him awake,
of the things that he's done

Breaking down,
as the tears start to flow
Lying on the ground,
as the drinks take their toll

eyes wide shut
hiding from the world
there is no escape,
as the horror's unfurled

He needs help,
but is lost in his mind,
his guardian angels is gone
it was once so kind

so now Insanity is here
and it's everclear,
you won't stop it
You wouldn't dare.......

The End.So this is the end,
My fears became true,
Its hard to forget someone like you

So I'll listen to a sad song,
as the memories fade,
memories of us,
memories we made

I'm letting it sink in,
It just doesn't feel real,
But with a little time,
all wounds can heal

I'm sorry if I screwed up
My apologies true,
And I hope that the next guy,
Is more deserving of you

Now it's goodbye,
This poems been done
I'm all out of words,
This songs been sung

Sweet dreams my dear,
and may you have a goodnight,
I wish your sleep peaceful
Until first light.

Somewhere In-betweenYou didn't have me at hello,
There was no love at first sight.
No heart skipping a beat right away,
No immediate connection.

Only a little chemistry,
And common interests.
We had friendship.

Love comes from friendship,
Not friendship from love.

And somewhere in-between,
Our first hello and this one,
I have fallen for you.

True Love~~ True Love ~~

If to live is to love
and to love is to live,
then do we love because we live
or do we live because we love?

Does anyone really know
what it feels like to love?
Or do we say we love
to justify that we live?

Could it be that we live
just to prove the existence of love?
Because if this is true,
why do we hate so much?

To achieve peace in our world
we start reckless wars
that cause thousands of people to die,
yet we blindly live on

Is it our minds that are corrupted
to make us believe that hatred could obtain tranquility?
Or could it be that way we live?
Maybe even the way we love?

So many questions
that may

The Quiet PenIt is funny how
A broken heart stirs the pen
Mine is now silent

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Standing UpI'm done

It is not my job to babysit you

It is not my job to hang around for you

It is not my job to ignore everything for you

It is not my job to know your feelings without you telling me

It is not my job to call you first

It is not my job to ignore school because of what you want

It is not my fault that you won't make time for me

It is not my fault that you picked him

It is not my fault that you had expectations

It is not my fault that I matter less than you do

It is not my fault that you chose to move away

It is not my fault that you can't wait

It is not because of me that you are hurting

It is not because of me that you thin

Strange LonelinessIt's hard to justify loneliness when you're in love
When there's a "his" to your "hers"
People tend to think,
"They must be complete"

But I miss you both too much
And sometimes I miss you to the point of remembering
Remembering what it felt like to drown in solitude

But if he's really all you need, please just let me know
Because I'm tired of being hurt
When you both say you're my best friends

VictimizedAnyone can be the victim if they want it bad enough

I promise

Because if you look for ways to be hurt, you'll find them
If you look for the slightest move that may be a snub, you'll find it
If you look for someone who will accept she's hurt you, you'll find her

I promise

No one is hurt more than those who wish to be the martyr
Than those who wish to be the coddled, wounded soul
Than those who wish to be victimized

Yet, darling, no one will ever be able to beat you at being the victim

Sleepless SleeperWind me up and let me go
And I will sit still

So still

A ragdoll on a shelf somewhere
With glassy eyes
And dreams of sleep

So still

All the passersby give me a nod
And say "I understand"
And I want to say, "No"

Because my feet ache from standing still
And my eyes ache from opening

To sleep, I whisper
To sleep

To Night, From the InsomniacHello, Night
Familiar old friend of mine
I wish I could meet you later
Haven't you noticed the time?

Hello, Night
Decked in your moonlight gems
Let me sleep, let me rest
I'm tired of 4am

Because I can't dance in the darkness
And I can't sing without sleep
Why would you let me close my eyes
When it's in corners that you creep?

Hello, Night
Oh foreign friend of mine
Sunlight's sliding through the cracks now
Guess I'm leaving you behind

Hello, Morning
Whispering on the morning dew
I'm sorry I can't love your light
But Night's left nothing here for you

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From an Insecure Girlfriend

by ~IChooseToLookUp, Sep 3, 2011, 2:25:57 PM
Literature / Poetry / Romantic / General / Free Verse

I'm sorry for the excess of apologies
And for all the thoughts that I've indulged
For dealing with the summer full of insecurities
That I only half-divulged

It's not easy living as an irrational being
That's motivated by her fear
But I could stand the poison I feed myself
If it stayed out of your atmosphere

I'm just a little lost, and a little dazed
At having someone that finds me fit
I've never had something this remarkable before
But I doubt I could have held on to it

And though I continue to learn and grow
To the shadow of the girl you deserve
There's still that something deep within
Controlled by assumptions both grand and absurd

And if I seem afraid of losing you
It's not that I don't believe your words
It's because I don't trust myself to keep you,
As is the way with cowards

But even though I'm a living mess,
A bundle of chaos upon your life,
That doesn't change that as long as I'm yours
You will make me feel alright

I know you say you're nothing amazing
Well, darling, neither am I
Maybe the world needs too un-amazing people
To love each other for awhile

So even though I'm scared out of my mind
I'll stay right where you need me
Because if knowing you has been an indication
This is the happiest I'll ever be

These won't be the last crazy things I do
But now you have this to remember that I love you

From an Insecure Girlfriendby ~IChooseToLookUp

Literature / Poetry / Romantic / General / Free Verse

Full title: Letters from an Insecure Girlfriend

*Mushroom-kat Mar 7, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

I favorited this a long time ago, but now it applies more than ever...every single word...it's kinda spooky. But I really really like this poem, amazing job

~IChooseToLookUp Mar 17, 2013 Student Writer

Thank you so much! Especially for favoriting and coming back to check it out! Means so much!

*Mushroom-kat Mar 17, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

Oh it isn't a problem really, you don't have to thank me! You deserve it

~missydiggs Sep 4, 2011 Student Traditional Artist

This verse:

'And if I seem afraid of losing you
It's not that I don't believe your words
It's because I don't trust myself to keep you,
As is the way with cowards'

Has the most meaning it me. It's beautiful and captures so many emotions in such perfect words. I love the way you vary the sentence structure and the way you compose it. It creates very strong images and emotions in my mind.
This the first time I've related with a poem so much, I love it.

Thanks for sharing your amazing words and ideas
Tessa x

~IChooseToLookUp Sep 6, 2011 Student Writer

Thank you so much! I'm so glad you could relate. That's something I take a ton of joy in. <3 Thank you for reading and sharing and commenting and generally being awesome.

~samXsamXsan Sep 3, 2011

This was beautiful. So sweet.

~IChooseToLookUp Sep 4, 2011 Student Writer

Thank you! And thank you for reading!

~MoonliteMeadows Sep 3, 2011 Hobbyist General Artist

beautiful

~IChooseToLookUp Sep 4, 2011 Student Writer

Thank you so much <3

!ForeverWillBeNothing Sep 3, 2011

Wow, this literally describes exactly what i'm going through,
it's wonderfully written

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