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A Realist's Look at Love

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IChooseToLookUp

Published: Apr 24, 2011

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I hate to break it to you, but love isn't that great

Yes, it puts butterflies in your stomach
But those butterflies will quickly turn to stone
The moment that one you dare to love looks away

Yes, it makes your knees weak
But that makes it all the easier to fall to your knees
When that person is gone

Love is an act of constantly putting yourself at risk
Saying "Here I am"
And hoping the other person doesn't say "Here I go"

Love is being honest
Telling the whole truth
When honesty may seem like the worst option

Love makes you question every word
Every movement, every breath
That you would never notice on an ordinary day

Love is trying to balance the desire to be with one person
With the knowledge that you can't abandon everyone
Love is decision, and it can be painful

Love is putting someone before yourself
And realizing this means you'll get the short side of the stick
Time and time again

Love sucks

So I hope it means a lot to you
That I know love is all these things
And I still love you anyway

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nickrowler

Oct 10, 2012

I think I figured out why I've never been in a relationship..... I'm a realist.

I had a crush on a guy when I was in high school, he had a girlfriend though. I was not envious or hateful towards her. Instead I told myself "if he is happy, then I am happy."

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